年年
张三坚回来了 2023-03-18 12:00
不知不觉又走完了一年。小的时候总是掰着手指头渴望时针嘀嗒得快一些，期盼属于田间泥鳅与小龙虾的暑假的来临、向往着开启大学生涯的第一次远行、想成为小小的自己曾经仰望的大人模样。
后来，时光飞逝得由不得分说，成长的暂停键也像失修了一样，被按下了就怎么也无法停止。已经记不起是什么样的契机让我抱起了吉他，更忘了是从什么时候开始，隔一段时间就会坐在电脑前打字与大家分享回忆与感悟。与其说是习惯，不如说是成为了一种寄托——时光匆匆地让人来不及记录和怀念，每天被无数电子信息塞满的我们也时不时想要清空思绪与情绪，写东西像是寻找一个可以依托的根，让回忆有迹可循，在大脑沟回温热蔓延。
Before I knew it, another year has passed. When I was a child, I was always counting down hoping time would pass faster, looking forward to the summer vacations with loach and crayfish in the fields, the first trip of my college life, and the adult I always wanted to become.
Later, time flew by without debate, the pause key on growth seemed to have malfunctioned, unstoppable once it had been pressed down. I can’t remember the moment I took up my guitar, and I also forgot when I started to sit in front of my computer to type now and then, to share my memories and impressions with you. Rather than calling it a habit, it’s a kind of a way to find comfort — time passes too soon to record and cherish, we are filled every day with a barrage of digital information, now and then we will want to empty our thoughts and emotions, writing things down is like searching for a base to rely on, so that memories can be traced back, and spread warmth in our minds.
文字很奇妙，通过不同环境衬托与介质传播总会有不同的化学反应。有时候出现在聊天的对话框时会显得冰冷，可是在这里总是炙热又饱满。这篇文章本应该破壳于过年期间，既然姗姗来迟，想必大家也不忍心在如此大好春光责备迟到的祝福，所以还是要再一次祝福所有的读者新年快乐、财源广进、平安幸福、健康快乐。
说来还是在临近过年时感染了新冠，虽症状不甚严重却把我身体里的懒虫给十足地喂饱了。生病期间意识昏昏噩噩，不但大脑像被精准推到了“OFF”键，就连平时闲不住的四肢也失去了活力——管它篮球棒球橄榄球，高尔夫青青草地还是滑雪的皑皑冰面，皆化为一片雾数。再加上天气日渐寒冷，最舒服的状态就是盖上毛毯躺在沙发上。这样的姿势与什么最配呢？当然是追一部电视剧了。
之前这部电视剧只在跑步时偶尔看上几眼，一直想找时间补上，但在如今快节奏的生活下拼凑出完整的时间，比路飞晚上睡觉不打呼噜还要难，这下难得有大片的可支配时间，一口气追完五季不在话下。
Words are fascinating, and there are always different chemistries when propagated through different environments and medium. Sometimes they feel icy cold in a chat-box, but here it’s always hot and full of energy. This essay was supposed to be released during New Year’s, but since it’s long overdue, I presume everyone can’t bear to reproach the late blessings on such a good spring day, so I would still like to wish all readers a Happy New Year, with bountiful wealth, peace and blessings, happiness and good health.
Actually I was infected with Covid right before New Year’s, and although symptoms were not serious, it was enough to feed the lazybones in my body. During the illness, I was drifting in and out of consciousness, not only did the button for the brain seem to have been precisely pushed to “OFF”, but even my limbs which were never idle, lost their strength, be it basketball, baseball, rugby, the greens of golf, or the snowy ice for skiing, everything turned into fog. In addition, the days are colder, and the most comfortable state is to lie on the sofa with a blanket. What is this pose best suited for? Of course it is to binge a TV show.
Before this I only managed to catch snippets of this TV series during my running, I was always looking for time to catch up, but trying to find enough time in today’s fast-paced life, was harder than Lufei not snoring when he sleeps, now that I have this rare large amount of disposable time, its not a problem to binge the five seasons at one go.
影片情节引人入胜，每一位演员也都奉献出精妙的表演艺术，赋予角色独特的魅力，特别是男主人公的形象和鲜明的性格，亦正亦邪几近疯魔。男主的个性如噬冰般冷血，好似这世间的一切都是一场交易，没有亲情，拒绝信仰，就连结婚三十年的妻子也像是他游戏里的一枚棋子。他渴望权力，渴望掌控一切，不择手段地清除身边一切障碍。这样的人物设定像是深入骨髓的寒性和极度燃烧的炙烈在碰撞，伴着自我摧毁的照亮生机，真实而冷峻，残酷又悲伤。
有一种奇妙的感觉是我感受到他的世界观、价值观入侵到了我的现实世界，有一种强烈的磁场感染、辐射、影响到我，我在想是不是应该按照他的思路处理问题，是不是应该成为他这样的人——他似乎是对的，他就是这样取得成功的，他才是强者……然而，同时我想起了一位老师的话：“演员是这个时代的巫师”，可能我在他的世界里迷失了自我，可回过头看那终究不像我，也不是我，也许正因为他和我是完全的不同人格，镜子终将有被打碎的一天。天暖了，阳康了，剧追完了，像一场午后的好梦被惊醒了。
一部优秀的作品、一位优秀演员的魅力是如此强大，把同为“巫师”的我也给迷惑了。但是戏终究是戏，你是你，你是你自己人生大戏的主角——情节、对白、故事需要我们自己来撰写和演绎，别人的故事终究是星辰下的风沙，从南边的海湾远远掠过，不留下任何足迹。
阳康之后，听从医嘱降低再降低运动量，“手牵手一步两步三步四步望着天，低下头一天两天十天二十天，看救生圈一天一点大一圈……”（竟然还押韵了😓），恢复运动计划即刻提上日程。
The plot is so engaging, every actor was brilliant in their craft, the unique charms of the roles, especially the male lead’s image and vivid personality, being both good and evil, close to madness. The male lead’s icy, cold-bloodedness, as if everything in the world are transactions, without kinship, rejecting faith, and even his wife of thirty years was just a pawn in his game. He thirsts for power, craves to control everything, go to any lengths to be rid of all obstacles around him. This kind of character set-up is a coldness down to the marrow colliding with a burning fierceness, a self-destructive vitality, both real and harsh, cruel and sorrowful.
A really strange feeling is I can feel his worldview, his values and invading into my real world. There is a very strong magnetic pull, a radiation that affected me, I started to think should I handle problems his way, to become someone like him — he seems to be correct, he has become successful this way, he is the strong….. However, I also remembered a teacher who said: “Actors are the wizards of this era.” Maybe I lost myself in his world, but I looked back and saw that that is ultimately not like me, and its not me, maybe because he and I are completely different, the mirror will be broken one day. The days became warm, I tested negative, the drama series is done, it was like suddenly waking up from a good afternoon nap.
The charm of a good work and a good actor is so powerful that I was bewildered by my fellow wizard. But a drama is only a drama, you are you, you are the main character of your own life – plot, dialogue, stories need us to write and act out, other people’s stories are the sand under the stars, far from the southern bay, leaving no footprints behind.
After recovering from Covid, I followed the doctor’s instructions to further decrease the amount of exercise yet again. “**Hold hands, take one step, take two steps, three and four steps, look up at the sky, lower your head one day, two days, ten days twenty days, see the safety buoy (waistline) getting bigger day after day ……” ( this actually rhymes 😓), the plans to resume exercising must be scheduled immediately.
** This is Jay Chou’s song lyrics from 星晴 Starry Mood
刚开始是在家里连着几天跑步半小时，让我对“坚持”又有了些许不一样的理解。恢复运动的第一天异常艰难，养成运动健身这个良好习惯很难，但停了一个月之后再捡起来的难度更是比让可乐不掉毛还要难。其实宏观的说，就是要有重头再来的勇气，并持之以恒。
说实话我好像从来没在运动这方面停滞这么久。刚舒展筋骨十分钟已感觉体力不支，只得望向窗外风景，分散注意力，此为保持定力第一招；其二，风景看疲了，开始找寻感兴趣的电视剧，再背背英文单词，就这样二十分钟就过去了。等到把风景瞪到荒芜，电视剧捱到灰暗时，开始大幅度摆动双臂，好似手摆动得越有力，身体就更加轻盈一些。随后，肱二头肌会力，小腿肌肉会力，股四头肌再冲冲血，最后感觉头发丝儿都能帮帮忙。最后终于完成运动半小时的“小”目标，时间一到，定力轰然崩塌，竟一下有点站不稳，真不能小瞧了病毒，蚤子虽小，却同样折腾人的很。
所以坚持是一种信念，是一种激发你内在潜能的存在。当腿部已经疲惫的时候，手臂会帮忙，背部会帮忙，大脑也会帮忙，你会调动身体一切的能量去帮助你坚持。前提是有明确的目标知道自己将要去到哪里，这大概就是心的力量。当努力到极致时，坚定的信念超越所有人，不只是身体的潜能会帮助你，滴水也可以穿石，惊涛也会拍岸，成功会自然而然的降临，就像潜入最深的谷底，往前走总有上坡；经历了极寒的严冬，春天必定要来临一样。所谓“日拱一卒无有尽，功不唐捐终入海”。
I started out by running for half an hour at home for several days, giving me a slightly different understanding of persistence. It was extraordinarily difficult to resume exercise on the first day. It was hard to get into the habit of exercising and working out, but it was even harder to pick up after a month’s rest was even more difficult than stopping Kele from shedding fur. In fact, big picture, it is to have the courage to start again, and persevere.
To tell the truth, I don’t think I have ever stopped working out for this long. After only ten minutes of stretching, I felt physically exhausted, so I had to look out of the window to distract myself by looking at the scenery. This was the first method to maintain willpower. The second way, after I got tired of the scenery, is to start looking for TV shows I was interested in, and memorized some English vocabulary, this way 20 minutes passed. After gazing at scenery until its barren, the dramas faded to black, I began to swing arms forcefully, as if the more powerful the swing, the lighter the body will get. Subsequently, move the biceps, calf muscle , get the blood pumping through the quadriceps , until it feels like even the hair strands can help. At last, the “small” goal of half an hour of exercise was achieved. When the time was up, the willpower crashed, and I was actually unable to stand steadily for a moment. We really can’t underestimate the virus. Even though fleas are small, they can still be a torment.
So persistence is a belief, something that can motivate your inner potential. When your legs are tired, your arms will help, your back will help, your brain will help, and you will mobilize all the energy in your body to help you to hold on. If you have a clear goal and know where you’re going, that’s probably the power of the heart. At the end of the day, a firm belief surpasses all others, beyond the physical potential, as even dripping water hollow out rocks, and rough waves can beat the shore, and success will naturally arrive. Just as walking into the deepest valley, if you keep going you are bound to walk up the slope; After enduring the harshest winter, the spring will eventually arrive. “Every little bit of daily effort will eventually see results.”
（图片源于网络）
Time really just flew by. I meant to translate this in March, but it is now already May.
Very fitting that I completed this on the Labor Day holiday.
Here’s to wishing the very best May for Zhang Zhehan, and all his haizhes.
It has been 20 months since 813, and we are grateful for every moment he persisted to keep shining.
Praying that his comeback and Birthday concert will be a resounding success!
Zhang Zhehan 